Things are Looking UP!

I feel like a new person. I am not the person who wrote the previous post. I am happy. I am healthy. I am getting stronger. I felt last year that I had no hope. No reason to hope, to dream, to live. This year I am looking toward the future. I remember how I felt then, but I don't feel those things anymore.

Maybe I am losing it

I feel like a failure. a disappointment. a liability. Today I cried on my way to work. I am crying at my desk. There are days that I don’t know how I’ll make it through the day. Today is one of those days.

I wish I could sleep until I could be happy again.

Here I Am

Today is the day that I jump in and write. This blog is to keep me accountable. Accountable to myself. Accountable to my family. Accountable to my readers, if I ever have readers. "I'm losing it" can mean so many things. 

"It" can be weight. 

"It" can be self-composure. 

"It" can be sanity.

In some cases, "losing it" can be good.  For example, if "it" is weight and you are overweight. 

In some cases, "losing it" can be, well, not so good. For example, if "it" is your sanity and you are...well, I'm not sure there is ever a time when it is good to lose your sanity.